my four walls

Today has been a slow day. Correction - Is a slow day as it is not even 4pm.

Anyway, has anyone else found that the last few months or year you have become more of a homebody?

I used to be out and about every single night in the weekdays and always had a plan for the weekends. Now if anyone tries to suggest anything last minute I have to politely decline or scramble for some excuse. I do not actively make plans at all as I have no desire to do anything.

I play football which is something that has been a part of my life for 20+ years with one evening of training and a Sunday for a match and even that is a chore. It does not bring me the enjoyment it once did, or the calm in my mind for those 90 minutes.

Since the pandemic where we found ourselves with no option to stay home, there was a brief spell of FREEDOM when restrictions were lifted. Where everyone wanted to be anywhere but inside their four walls. But this has been short lived for me.

I used to love to travel, weekends here, holidays there and even that spark has gone!

I feel like I am turning into my parents who work, watch tv, sleep and repeat. I miss the excitement I used to feel about an adventure, doing something new or seeing something different. Now on the rare occasion I venture out I find myself concerned that the financial impact does not balance the temporary joy I feel or lack of joy I am feeling. Am I just getting old?

I want to be at home and enjoy it as I am working to keep this roof over my head as with 70% of my wages going on bills and groceries why would I not?

I feel my life is abit off balance right now, any thoughts and guidance on getting on the right path let me know!